MUST READ: HEART OF A GOOD WOMAN

Someone shared this on my facebook wall. And I
had to share with you guys.
I should tell you this before u start, its a long
story but please take your time to read it and
comment after reading…
I, Sarah Adams take Lawson Kuti as my lawful
wedded husband, to love and to cherish, in
sickness and in health, till death do us part” she
smiled at him through her veil.
“You may now kiss your bride Mr. Lawson” The
Pastor beckoned.
Lawson’s heart raced as he gently unveiled his
bride’s face. She looked so beautiful. He gently
bent over and placed a soft kiss on her lip. Sarah
in turn embraced him tightly with tears of joy
streaming down her face.
“Never leave me Sarah” He whispered in her
ear.
“I will never leave you” she whispered and they
slowly released themselves from the embrace.
“I present to you the latest couple!” The Pastor
exclaimed excitedly
The church cheered and Sarah cried more in her
husband’s arms
5 years Later
Sarah silently tip toed behind her husband. He
was in his study, engrossed in reading. She
smiled to herself and gently covered his eyes
with both hands.
“It’s just you and I in this house Sara, plus, I
smelled you the moment you walked in” He
dropped
Sara released her hold, sighed and sat on the
study table, “Why do you figure me out so
easily? I can’t even surprise you! That sucks”
she curled her arms around his neck
“You are my wife, nothing you do is supposed to
surprise me” He playfully pecked her nose.
“But you’ve been in the study all day and I’m
bored!” She rolled her eyes
“So what kind of fun do you suggest we have
then?” He swooped her off the table in his arms
“No! no that kind of fun!” She hit him playfully
till he put her down
“Ok”, He folded his arms on his chest, looking
into her eyes, “So what do you want us to do?”
“Not us. Actually, all I want is to play with your
play station and you’ve hidden it again! Just
give it and you can continue your reading.
pleaaaseee” She blinked her eyes playfully
“No way”, He went back toward his study chair
and sat, “Not my play station”
“Why! You never let me touch it…like its your
baby” She sulked
“Well”, he rolled his eyes, “Not like you’ve given
me a baby yet”
Sara paused for a moment. Did he just say that
to her? The words struck her deep down
“You shouldn’t have said that Lawson…” She
managed to say, her countenance changing.
“But it’s true…I’m only saying the truth Sara”
He turned to face her, still sitting on the chair.
“The truth? You think I don’t want us to have
kids?”
“Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that…” He
stood to face her now.
“Then what are you saying Lawson? Tell me,
what is the truth?”
“Let’s not do this today…please. You can have
the play station and play all you want. It’s in my
footwear locker and the key is in my Bible”
“You always do this…hurting me with your
words” Her voice began to shake
“Don’t start Sara please”
“Tell me why you said those words to me! I
want to know!”
“Because I’m tired! I want to be a father! I want
to have my own kids Sara…”
” and you think I don’t?!” Sara flared, trying not
to let the tears pour
“Then why can’t you get pregnant Sara? This is
the fifth year we are trying.” He clenched his
teeh and walked out of the study.
Sara was in shock. She sat on the chair for some
seconds, stood up again and saton the chair
again…this time she held on to her blouse and
burst into tears.
2weeks after
“Lawson, wake up please” Sara tapped him
Lawson gently opened his eyes and looked at
the alarm clock by his bedside, “It’s 2:00am
Sara…”
“It’s urgent”
“I’m listening” He said drowsily
“Mother says we should come for tests. She
says she’s spoken to her doctor and he said we
should come.”
“What?” Lawson opened his eyes now, “Your
mother is the UK for Christs sakes”
“Let’s just do it. We can go for the weekend,
lets just give it a shot, please.”
“No. That would be rather expensive and…”
“It’s my birthday today and the only thing I want
from you is this trip”
Lawson fell quiet now. For the past two years
now, his wife’s birthday skips his mind…totally.
“I’m…I’m sorry Sara…It skipped my mind…”
“It always does” She lay down back on the bed,
backing him.
Lawson wrapped his arms around her waist, “I
said I’m sorry…”
No response.
Lawson sighed, “Fine, we go this weekend”
“Really?” She turned sharply, excited
“If it will make you happy today”
“Thank you baby” She hugged him.
A week after
Sara jerked at the vibration of the phone in her
pocket.
“Hi mom!” she pressed the phone to her ear
with her shoulders, wiping the washed dishes
with her hands.
“Honey…”
“What is it mom?” she pressed it harder
“The result…the result of the tests…” her
mother cried
Sarah gently dropped the plate and the wiper,
hear racing…”Just say it mom…”
That night
“I can never have children Lawson…” Sara cried
Lawson felt his world crash right in front of him,
“W…what?”
“Mama called today…she’s gotten the tests
results”
“Jesus Christ” Lawson stood, placing his palm on
his head, “b…but you told m you were ok before
we got married, you told me the doctor said
your abortion didn’t damage your womb”
“Don’t bring my past into this!” Sara flared
Lawson laughed and got serious almost
immediately, “You are crazy. I married a crazy
woman!”
Sara looked at him in shock, like he’d lost his
mind.
“The results say you can never have children
and we bith know that this has to do with the
abortion you had before we met!”, he flared,
“are you happy?…you know we’re screwed
right? No kids? what re we going to tell the
world?”
“Lawson we can adopt…” Sara cried
“Adopt? Wow!”, he laughed again, “I married a
funny woman too!” He got sserious again, “Its
still not our baby! The damn baby is not my
flesh and blood! You are full of deceit Sara” He
looked into her eyes. Sara could see him fighting
his tears.
“Lawson stop…you are hurting me…” Sara fell
on her knees crying
“You want to know what I’m thinking?” Lawson
looked at her with disgust, “I’m thinking how on
earth I’m going to stand seeing your deceitful
face for the rest of my life”
“Sra cried harder, “Dont give up Lawson…So far
I have a womb…I can still carry our baby…”
“I am not giving up on having my baby, I’m
giving up on you” Lawson turned around to
leave
“Lawson!” She held his feet, “I’m hurting too…”
He only dragged his feet from her hold and
drove out of the house. She wept.
A month Later
“Mother, he’s not even talking to me. All of a
sudden we are both strangers…He doesn’t eat
my food, comes home late…he hates me so
much and its killing me. I’m confused…to think
that it’s ,e truly hurting…”
“For how long will you hide this truth from him.
You’ve got to let him know…you can’t carry
his…”
There was the sound of a car hon
“Mom I’ve got to go…he’s back”
“Baby, you’ve got to let him know. It can work
when you two are one in mind”
“Bye mom” she ended the call.
Lawson came into the house, about to walk past
her.
“Lawson” She held him
“I’m tired” He didn’t want to look at her face
“I know…can we talk for some minutes?” She
tried to help him remove his suit
“Look what is it” He jerked from her
“Do you hate me this much? you can’t even
look me in the eye? you can’t even stand my
sight? Lawson…it’s me Sara…your best friend…”
Her eyes grew moist
“I’m in no mood for this” He turned around to
walk away
“Don’t you dare leave when I’m talking to you!”
She dragged him by the suit.Just then, some
papers fell to the floor. Sara quickly bent to pick
them up…her hands shook and her body
became numb all over.
“D…divorce papers? Lawson?” She searched his
eyes
“Answer me goddammit!” She held him by the
collar of his shirt, crying
“They are for you to sign. I want out” Lawson
dropped
“Y…you what?” she slowly freed him from her
hold
“It’s not going to work Sara, can’t you see?”
“Lawson I can’t believe you would think of a
divorce and even go this far…why are you so
wicked!” she cried, angry
“No! Why are you so wicked!” He retorted,
flaring
“Think about me for once. I am a man for
Christs sakes. My children are my pride! and
you are about to deny me that for the rest of
my life because of your stupid mistake!”
“What about me! have you stopped for once to
think about what I’m going through”
“Its your cross, carry it” Lawson fixed his angry
eyes on his wife
“No, its now our cross and I am not signing
those divorce papers! We vowed never to leave
each other!”
“Isn’t it better Sara that you save yourself more
hurt and sign these papers than to see another
woman move into this house before your very
eyes?” he said with a tone of sarcasm
Sara’s heart thumped, “What?”
“You heard me…another woman who can help
raise a family, so save yourself the stress and
sign the damn papers. I need it tomorrow”He
turned around to leave again
“She still can;t carry your baby” Sara dropped
“Not all women had abortions. Not every
woman was like you.” He scorned
“You are the one who can’t give me a child!”
Sara let out, crying.
Lawson stopped now, turned around and walked
towards her, “Whatever your plan is won’t work”
“I told you I could never have a child because its
you who can’t make me pregnant”
“Shut up! shut up Sara! what the hell are you
saying!” He shook her shoulders violently
“You are infertile Lawson…the doctor says you
have primary infertility…” Sara burst into tears
Lawson gasped, loosing his balance.
“Mother called me to give me the news. I was
shattered, I felt like my world was over but
more importantly I thought of you. I thought of
what the news could do to you, I thoight of the
best way to tell you… never for once did i think
of leaving you. I bore your insults, your scorn,
because of my past. It was so easy to judge me
and think of yourself. I am the one who is
hurting, I am the one who should bring some
miserable divorce papers…but I thought of
you…I thought of hope, faith and a miracle…I
thought of my vow to you on that altar. In
sickness and in health remember?”, she smiled
through her tears, “all of a sudden you are as
weak as a baby…looking in your eyes, I can see
you sudenly have lost all your guards, You are
so wicked”
“Sara…” Lawson fell on his knees, torn.
“No!” She quickly fell on her knees too, “No
Lawson…” She couldn’t bear to see him cry
“I’m…I’m infertile”, he cried, “What is left of
me?” he searched his wife’s eyes
“Lawson please…” she held his face, “I
understand…it has been so hard for me…I have
put myself in your shoes since the first day…”
“You don’t deserve this…you deserve better…I
can’t believe I scorned you all along…please let
me leave you”
“No” she shook her head, “You are my husband.
I won’t leave you. I won’t let you leave me…I
believe in miracles”
“I’m doomed…Sara I’m doomed…”He allowed
his wife take him in her arms and on her
shoulder he wept like a child.
In the Morning
Sara gently opened her eyes, looking beside her
bed…it was empty. She quickly sat up on seeing
a note gently placed on the bed. Hands shaking,
she opened the letter to read.
Sara,
I cannot bear the shame. I have treated you so
unfairly, yet you love me still, you are with me
even in this condition of mine. To think that you
knew all along and you never for once gave me
a clue that it is my fault we are in this mess,
makes me so unworthy of you. I love you
enough to let you build another life with a man
who can make you happier. I’m torn Sara and all
I ask is your forgiveness. I have always loved
you and if you truly love me then please start
your life over again…without me…I am truly
sorry for disappointing you.
Lawson.
Sara couldn’t control the tears. She couldn’t
think straight anymore. She picked her cell
phone, shaking…
“Hi Mr. Lawson’s office please”
“hI Lola…” she cried, “have you seen my
husband today?”
“No…no ma’am, we’ve been expecting him at
work. He has a presentation is fifteen minutes”
“Oh God…God…” Sara dipped her hand in her
full hair
“Everything ok ma’am?”
“Thank you” she ended the call.
She quickly got down from the bed and in her
pajamas she ran into her car. She dialed his
number repeatedly as she drove…no answer.
At 2:00pm
She sped into Fred’s compound, a close friend to
her husband.
“Fred!” she banged the door hastily till the door
flung open
“My God Sara what’s wrong?” Fred held her
“It’s…its Lawson…have you seen him? is he
here?”
“No…Haven’t heard from him in a week”
“Oh God” she held her hair
“What’s wrong?”
But she was already walking away into her car.
“Sara!” He called after her.
She zoomed away.
4:30pm
“Mom, Dad, I can’t find Lawson…I can’t find
your son…” she cried as she paced in front of
the two who looked lost
“You have to calm down and tell us what
happened” Lawson’s mother put her arms
around Sara.
Sara burst into tears, “Please Dad could you try
his number, maybe he’d pick your call?”
“Have you been to his office?” He picked his
cellphone and dialed his son’s number
“I have been everywhere I know him to be likely
available”
“It’s ok…calm down please” Lawson’s mother
pet her
“He’s not picking. What exactly went wrong
between you two?” Lawson’s father searched
Sara’a eyes
9:00pm
Sara was still in her pajamas and on her way
back home, exhausted and stuck in the traffic.
She had told Lawson’s parents everything. The
poor couple was so shattered and also begging
her to begin a new life. Sara buried her head on
the steering, crying; she hadn’t realized the
green light.
“Hey get off the freaking road!” a driver cursed
from behind her
“God please don’t let him harm himself…keep
him safe and lead me to him…please God…”
she quickly started the car and began to move.
Suddenly she remembered the church where
they wedded and took their vows. It was two
hours from here; she made a u-turn and headed
for the church hoping to find some peace.
She tiredly got down from the car, drenched and
exhausted. She trudged into the open entrance
of the church. She paused for a moment;
shocked…it was Lawson sitting at the front row
of the empty church, facing the altar.
“Lawson!” She began to run towards him,
happy, relieved that he was ok.
“Sara?” He quickly stood as she approached
him, “Sara…”
They both ran into each other’s arms. He
hugged her so tightly
“I looked for you everywhere….thi s was the last
place I thought you’d ever be…I just came and I
saw you…Lawson….I’m so happy you are ok”
she touched his face
“I didn’t know where else to go…It just feels like
I cant face the world anymore…” he slowly
released her from his embrace.
“Take my hand” Sara stretched out her hand,
“C’mon, just take it”
Lawson gently clasped his hand into hers and
she took him to the altar and stood to face him.
She searched his eyes so deeply and hadn’t
seen him so weak and helpless.
“Five years ago Lawson, we both stood on this
altar. Remember our vows? Remember you
whispered in my ear never to leave you. I told
you I wouldn’t…that’s why I’m here. I am your
wife Lawson, I am meant to be with you forever,
though the bad and good times. We’ve had
good times, why would I leave you now? All I
want from you is to believe that you can still
give me a child despite what the result said…I
want you to believe in a miracle”, she held his
face, “remember when you told me I was a
miracle in your life?…our children will be our
miracles too. Trust God with me because I know
it won’t be long…”
“Who are you Sara…” Lawson was weak with
her words
“The one who vowed to be with you till the end”
she smiled through her thin tears
“God I love you so much Sara” He hugged her
again
“So will you come back home with me?” Sara
searched his eyes
“I have no other place to call home” He placed
a soft kiss on her lips.
2 years after
Lawson and Sara were on the sofa watching a
late night movie. Sara was resting on his
shoulders when she felt the movement
“Lawson Lawson, it moved again…don’t miss it
this time touch touch” she gently placed his
palm on the side of the stomach. Both felt the
movement of their child
“I can feel him…I can feel him” Lawson placed
his head on her belly
“I can feel him growing each day inside of
me…”
“What do you think its saying now by this
movement?”
“Thank you dada for believing in me” she
laughed. They both laughed “The movement
has stopped” he slowly removed his head from
her stomach, “I think he’s sleeping”
Sara rested on his shoulders again, “In six
months you’d be a father, “You finally got your
miracle”
Lawson tilted his wife’s face to him, looking into
her eyes, “Sara…you were the miracle I needed.
Thank you for not leaving me.”
Sara tickled his nose with hers, “I love you too.
Always will”, she smiled, “We missed a whole
lot on our movie”
“Movie can wait, but this can’t” He gently
planted a kiss on her belly.
Hi Friends,
First, we forget our vows so easily, so quickly
that once our marriages start hitting the rocks,
we fail to realize that there is power in union.
When there is union, every mountain can be
subdued. The problem is people don’t yet
understand the concept of marriage and trust
me, until you do, please don’t go to the alter
because what you don’t understand will
eventually become a burden and confuse you.
The concept of marriage is ‘for better, for
worse’. The ‘worse’ moments always come. I
am not saying expect bad things but I’m saying
that challenges come in marriage to make you
stronger in oneness so don’t use it against
yourselves.
Second, miracles are real and I hope we all learn
to have the patience to have our miracles in the
end. Remember that marriage is a ‘stick and
stay’ relationship not a ‘hit and run’ thing.
Remember your vows each day, enjoy your
marriage, you deserve it.